Mumms the Word.

we girls sit alone often crying and moping about why we have no one to love hold or go to. Since the day we’re born girls get this insane urge to know everything. we just like to be “know-it alls” haha i wont lie im only describing myself, and those girls who can relate. I’ll have to admit I am better off in a relationship or else I’m just a wild goose, but when i get in one, i become so crazy to a point where im almost close to losing that “perfect” relationship. Today my boyfriend and i got promise rings. There was a time where my boyfriend would let me know every second how much he loves me and cares, lately that mushy mushy buisness is over, but didnt neccessarily stop. Of course my female mind started jumping into conclusions. At the end of the day, i forget the fact that he has gotten me a ring to promise to always be there, and promise to try his best at this relationship. I forget to look into his eyes where his feelings are clearly there, so what if words arent expressed. So maybe a long make-out session isn’t there, a kiss on the forehead says love to me. maybe 10 hours arent spent together anymore but just that one hour i get, i feel love in the air. I guess what I’m trying to say is, a relationship always gets out of the honeymoon stage and comes down to the realistic stage, whether its us ever asking ourselves ” am i a psycho or just too much in the habit of him” it can be both but both can be great, a girl just needs to see a guy shows love in different ways, and we should be appreciative of all that we get. I would have to thank and look at all those hard times my bf has been there for me and supportive of me. And if anyone knows the chill pill doctor recommend me lol. I am one of the most luckiest girls to have such an amazing boyfriend, and me being constantly scared of losing him does him no justice. A word of advise, ladies just be happy you have a trustworthy boyfriend, who does the best to show that he loves you equally.

i promise to love you more than yesterday, but less than tomorrow.

i promise to be there through all the hardest time life will throw at you.

i promise to hold you tight when you’re lonely.

i promise to never listen to others over you.

i promise to trust you.

i promise to care for you and your family like my own.

i promise to make unbreakable promises….

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep… wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’ re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU… The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her… 

Many say your family knows you the most, but how many people can truly agree with that? Family are like room mates you know you can’t get rid of. At the end of the day they’ll still be nice people but you may not like them at all times. They’re people that always tend to make you put everything a side and just make you forget everything. My parents in the other hand, loving and all but at the end they just DONT get it. They’ll never want to budge. You know you get stuck in those relationships with people that never want to hear you out and force you into a guilt trip? Yeah thats life with my parents. No matter what you do at the end of the day, you’ll never be good enough. You’ll always be judged by your siblings mistakes, and thats just how it goes. I don’t think i remember life ever being so miserable. So damn miserable. I’m stuck in the same spot, not going backwards or moving forwards. It’s either I’m fuckin up or I’m being taught to believe that. I’m in a bittersweet dilemma, couldn’t ask for a better boyfriend and best friend but it’s what i got to come home to. You got to smile for them great people in your life right? How long can they hear your rant about your shit. After all it truly isn’t there shit to deal with right? So at the end what are YOU left with? Yup that family. That is why people say no matter what happens at the end it’s family that’ll be there through all the shit..cuz its them putting you through it! My conclusion for the day so far.